Wow! It has been such a long time since I have been able to blog. It feels so good. Yesterday I had a free day with Edgar and I literally just had the sudden urge to go find some apple trees, put on something cute, and grab one of my favorite accessories... my wolf Musa haha. Edgar grabbed the camera and we just went for it. I have missed this!
I've always thought the continuous rows of apple trees were dreamy and I've always just wanted to run through them... and I was right. They are as dreamy as I thought they'd be. So if you're in the need of some simple happiness, please go frolic through some apple trees, I promise a smile on your face. Edgar always tells me you need to trespass sometimes to find yourself in the greatest places haha!
Well besides the fact that it's been a super long time since I've blogged, I've been learning a lot. I wanted to wait to start blogging again until I knew myself fully, and until I could go days and days without putting on makeup and doing my hair and still feel beautiful as ever. I started waking up every morning and literally telling myself "I will not give up on you today Hayden.", and with that mind set I could feel myself start to blossom into the girl I always knew I could be. I started to become myself... and ever since that day where it all just clicked, I've been the happiest human. I've loved myself everyday because of it. My positive attitude has become such a habit now and it's the most refreshing feeling I've ever had in my life!
Before all of this, I remember trying so hard every single day to be this perfect girl, I never accepted my flaws. I thought my flaws were the most hideous things in the world. And it would stress me out to the extreme trying to figure out how I could hide them. I wore so much makeup every single day, I never gave myself a chance to breathe and embrace my naked face or even wear something that wasn't all put together. It was exhausting. And it's so sad knowing now that I used to be that kind of girl! It was a process that took a lot of time to get to where I am today, and I feel so happy to have conquered it all! I love myself today... and if any of you are going through the same thing I did, just know that it will only get better if you commit to loving yourself. It's the most important thing you need to do. It wont only effect you, it will effect everyone in your life, and once you can love yourself with your whole heart you can give your whole heart.
I hope that speaks volumes to someone out there, and I hope you all have a fantastic week...