Wednesday, November 18, 2015

I'm back!

I know that I completely disappeared for a long time, but life had to be done and there were a lot of things that I needed to accomplish. Everything has changed besides the fact that TIME keeps flying by. That's just the usual and I'm still not used to it. I don't think I ever will be. Days feel like minutes and hours feel like seconds... I finally accepted that this is just the way life is when you grow up. Thanksgiving is next week and Christmas is in 36 days... like what? Hayden can you repeat that? Hahaha life is so weird, and I really need to start watching all the Christmas movies I can before the holidays are already over! 
The last 4 months have been nothing short of amazing. July I was in Hawaii with my family, which was the best vacation ever! August-September I busted my butt to finish school and YES I did it! The beginning of October I went to Austin, Texas with my mom to go visit my sister and that was seriously awesome. I had never been before and I just really loved it. Lately I've been working, reading a LOT, and enjoying the actual free time I have now... which is super super weird. It's one of the weirdest feelings ever not having to go to school 5 days a week 9:00-4:30. 

LAST day of school! 2,000 hours.... done.

Totally dyed my hair pink after I graduated, and it was the best decision ever. Love my momma 

My sisters dog, Jerry. The biggest lover

Sister sister

Finn, the kitty love of my life.

The best part of my family living in different places is the fact that I'll always have something to look forward to.

No more pink hair! I did a melted root and I'm letting my hair be until Spring... a break is much needed.

Monday, June 15, 2015

Apple Trees...

Wow! It has been such a long time since I have been able to blog. It feels so good. Yesterday I had a free day with Edgar and I literally just had the sudden urge to go find some apple trees, put on something cute, and grab one of my favorite accessories... my wolf Musa haha. Edgar grabbed the camera and we just went for it. I have missed this! 
I've always thought the continuous rows of apple trees were dreamy and I've always just wanted to run through them... and I was right. They are as dreamy as I thought they'd be. So if you're in the need of some simple happiness, please go frolic through some apple trees, I promise a smile on your face. Edgar always tells me you need to trespass sometimes to find yourself in the greatest places haha!
Well besides the fact that it's been a super long time since I've blogged, I've been learning a lot. I wanted to wait to start blogging again until I knew myself fully, and until I could go days and days without putting on makeup and doing my hair and still feel beautiful as ever. I started waking up every morning and literally telling myself "I will not give up on you today Hayden.", and with that mind set I could feel myself start to blossom into the girl I always knew I could be. I started to become myself... and ever since that day where it all just clicked, I've been the happiest human. I've loved myself everyday because of it. My positive attitude has become such a habit now and it's the most refreshing feeling I've ever had in my life!
Before all of this, I remember trying so hard every single day to be this perfect girl, I never accepted my flaws. I thought my flaws were the most hideous things in the world. And it would stress me out to the extreme trying to figure out how I could hide them. I wore so much makeup every single day, I never gave myself a chance to breathe and embrace my naked face or even wear something that wasn't all put together. It was exhausting. And it's so sad knowing now that I used to be that kind of girl! It was a process that took a lot of time to get to where I am today, and I feel so happy to have conquered it all! I love myself today... and if any of you are going through the same thing I did, just know that it will only get better if you commit to loving yourself. It's the most important thing you need to do. It wont only effect you, it will effect everyone in your life, and once you can love yourself with your whole heart you can give your whole heart. 
I hope that speaks volumes to someone out there, and I hope you all have a fantastic week...
Happy Monday!

Dress- Target